How so far I returned to a time where I had locked myself from people's thoughts and started forming my own. What triggered it, I could only guess. But I will say that every human was programmed even before he was born to a path in life that he will walk no matter what he does. I think I was 17 years old when I had started my semi-impossible endeavor to formulate my own knowledge and reach my own truths. Where nothing lay outside my scrutiny, not tradition nor religion. Religious texts and philosophy books were kindled, and nights and nights of contemplation. It was a beautiful time, but it consumed me like a leech consumes its host.

I was left with a firm and unwavering belief in Islam. Not sunni nor shii, but my own understanding of Islam, it was a result of my own studies and thus it was binding to me more than humans could even imagine. I was also left with a pure and noble goal, perfection.

I really am at odds as talking about myself was not really in my acceptable zone, but perhaps people can really understand a methodology that I would invite everyone to adopt.

Perfection to me was feeling other's feelings and hurting for other's pain. It meant marginalizing my own desires for the desires of others. It meant full and unconditional sacrifice. Full and unconditional love. It meant profoundly altering the lives of everyone who encountered me as I embodied and exemplified meanings that were thought to have been lost. The first people who witnessed the change were my family and my friends, but without understanding the reasons for this seemingly illogical change.

To me, words like hatred, anger, ego and control simply vanished. Words like sacrifice, honesty, nobility, purity, sensitivity, mercy and mental, spiritual and secular transcendence became my goals. I put a margin for errors, as humans are fallible, so I accepted the possibility of change in the future, truth became my drive, wanting to reach higher levels of perfection and transcendence.

Yet here I am back to my stalled study to continue where I have once left off. To see what changes I have to make. I've already identified something new, humans can never reach absolute certainty, but only justifiable certainty. When they believe they have reached absolute certainty they become powerful beyond bound. As to justifiable certainty, it goes like this, if a and b, then c. a is a premise and b is a premise that need to be validated themselves to come to the conclusion of c. c will be used as a premise to reach d. The danger lies in using a premise that is unvalidated, then the conclusion, which is logically sound, will be based on a false premise. And this conclusion, which was based on a false premise, will be used to build yet another conclusion, and a chain reaction that leads to false conclusions/premises results.

It would be grand if humans could reach the basic premises from which all other conclusions/premises are derived, weather such premises are even finite is an open question. But it would seem that as long as we lack knowledge of all the basic premises and because we will evidently fail to apply correct logical reasoning, we need to accept that our knowledge is only justifiably certain. The person who has gathered more premises that are validated is more justified in his certainty. And it is arguably possible for a human to reach a level where his certainty is so high that it could reach levels near absolute certainty.

You can imagine the world as an unlimited number of premises that are all interwoven to reach conclusions that will be used themselves as premises to reach other conclusions, no fallacies exist. A full web of perfect and complete knowledge that makes every conclusion absolutely certain. But humans, lacking knowledge of everything can never reach that level of certainty. Only an absolute being with absolute knowledge of the infinite could truly make conclusions that are absolutely certain.

I'm afraid that I'm really talking like philosophers now! I hate philosopher talk. In my next article, I will clear out why Islam has really caught me as a religion so justifiably certain that to me it nears absolute certainty.